Its sucks going from everything being okay to having your world flipped upside down so quickly. I hate feeling this way but there’s nothing I can do to change it except pretend that im okay. I don’t understand how people can just stop caring so quickly. I never trust people and when I do im always given reasons why I shouldn’t. I guess ill just put my wall back up, I can’t afford to get hurt, nor can I handle it. I dont wanna set my hopes high just to get disappointed I CANT handle it. I guess im getting used to not having anyone. I just dont wanna try anymore cus I know ill be disappointed in the end. It shouldnt be hard to be there for someone youre supposed to love, it shouldnt take effort and work to show them you care. I guess it might be better to distance myself cus if someone really cares then they’ll try, but if they dont then it’s already what I expected anyways so it saves me the disappointment. I dont understand why this always happens to me, am I a bad person or what? I guess I better just get used to having this always happen. Oh well.